Sorry Sorry _ Post

I feel so sorry, since I have long time not updated my blog... For some of the people who know my blog link, would you feel boring right? Hahahx

I'm so sorry... Recently, I had the bad temper... I don't know whether why am I so easily affected by every single thing. Am I jealous ? When did I b

ecome a niggard ? When can I accept people's active in those parts I never care ?

Stupid Nigel...

Try your best to do everything which are you in charge of... Take the responsibility to do your work... Winning is nothing... You should pursue the living knowledge or not the fame and position...

We shouldn't be lazy which we shouldn't risk the life to get first place in the start of the game. Follow those people who are cleverer or smarter than you. Always keep yourself in the second place, that's the only way to reflect your weakness to yourself...

Learn how do the people do, accept people's advices and correct your mistakes... don't be lag or you will never have the chance to reach the peak...

You have the champion blood in your body, since your name is born for you... Don't be afraid... You have the chances to exceed anyone, no matter he's President or Beggar; no matter he is idiot or Einstein...

Be patient... Study hard and smart... You can do it... (=

Yes, I can do it...

OKOK, released already...

To everyone: No matter how you show off in front of me... Before I understand I can beat you, just show off... I don't ever care about it...

However, you should be careful... The day, when I have exceeded... You have no more chance to chase me back...

Raining

Raining day,

People ran back on the way;

Nigel keep on his walk in the rain,

No matter his scars broke again.

People asked him the reason,

He laughed and dropped his tears;

The road had get wet,

front back left right anyway.

Neither fast or slow,

got wet is the destiny;

Since the day she left,

the rain has never stopped.

Quantity of rain such as my sorrow,

Quality of rain such as my scar;

Since we know that we would get wet,

walk, run, jump, sprint is the same....

The weakness of lovebird

__A pair of lovebirds are the most happiness animal in the World. They have no weakness... Nothing can separate them, even one of them has died or left...

__One of the lovebirds, which is the most pitiful animal in the World. He has too many weaknesses... Nothing can heal him, even Hippocrates Williams has relived...

__Separated, that will not affect the feeling between them while that will planted the seed of sadness. ______ At least _______

__ He's afraid... Without him, she'll not be living well...

__ He's afraid... He's leaving, she'll feel alone and be afraid...

__ He's afraid... She'll be hurt by accidentally, but he's never informed...

__ He's afraid... She'll sad, cry and nobody caring when she's dropping her tears......

__ He's afraid... She'll be bullied, but he's not around...

__ He's afraid... He cannot continue to be her guardian angel, when they are separated...

__ He's afraid every about her daily routines, emotion, sicks, even happiness will be lost control...

He's afraid God cannot promise... Cannot promise him to replace and protect her in the days he's not longer around her...

Pls receive my begging, and give Happy, Happiness, Health, Wealth for her... I appreciate...

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Miss you ~ (3)

Today~ 22 August
Weather~ Sunny Morning

This the third day, third post since I decided to use this method to miss you...

This is a Sunday morning, you're in M'sia right.....
I believe that you are still in bed if your family does not need to go your granny's house...

First I recognized you, you disliked sleep early in the night, and would not wake up early in the morning... seems like a normal teenager....

After five years, this habit has slightly changed.... Since both of us entered different University, course work, project, assignment became a burden for us.. Sleep early that become an impossible job, but you are not sleep late in the morning... You're as cute as before.... You become different as before...

Do you think why I fall in love you with you... Because your beauty face.? your brilliant.? or what do you think.?

If you can find out an answer, that's mean you did not love me at all in five years...
Feeling cannot use to be a reason or excuse... I love you since god gave me a chance to recognize you...

Thanks for every probability, thanks for the chance to love you...... my lov<3.....

It's me... Thinking of you......

Today__ 21 August midnight...
Weather__ No rain, but I think quite cold.. although I'm in aircon room...
Feeling__ Same as usual...

I still remember... you have a sensitive nose... Sneeze is your friend, tissue is your partner... Somebody said: everytime you sneeze, there will be someone is thinking of you...

Yes, you can consider your condition as that case.. Because, I'm thinking of you..... I cannot deny that, I'm not thinking of you for whole day... However, just everytime when you sneezed...

Yes, maybe you are right, your sneezing is not my business; I have no that strength to control your nose...... Actually, I'm in controlled.... By you...

Your magic is still effective to affect my mind, my feeling, my heart... Your sneezing scene, which has been printed in my blood, I still can feel it...

Everytime, I saw you to wipe your sneeze... I saw your pity face, I cannot reduce my caring from you... You need someone to take care.... You're like a child.....

Since you decided to pass your hand for me, I took the responsibility to guard you, to love you, take care you.... I'm sorry, I cant finish my job in the end....

One day, if you got chance to read this post, I hope that you have already found your true love...
I will be your guardian Angel in somewhere you never know......

Dun let anyone to bully you or hurt you......

I love you...... and Good Night.. My beloved xiao pei......

I Think I ........

I've tried to control myself..... I know that will affect your life if I cannot control........ How can I do...... Am I too stubborn.....?

I can't told to anyone, because that's our business...(maybe is only mine)

So painful........ Are you really want to break up with me.?

Seriously, that's what you want, then I will respect your decision..... Haha, what am I talking about the silly thing. Did i really respect you? If I have, why am I still writing the post here? Why did i still disturb you......

ARh... Sorry, sorry... Really I feel sorry to you........ Sorry for my rude, sorry for my fault, sorry for my silly, sorry for hurting you... Sorry... Sorry............

I miss you..... Sorry, if you got chance to see this post..... Pls forgive me..... Sorry for seeing my weakness.......

My exam's seat number

This is the second day of my final exam...

I got the same seat number during these two days. It's '9'... Do you still remember what's the meaning for this number..?

Yes, that's your favorite number wad... I dun know whether there is any hint for me to get this number, since we became like this... I felt pain as I felt happy..... This number is felt like you're supporting me to my final, or i was thinking about you when i looked at it every time.

I cannot focus which I was looking the number.... Cus i'm useless, not your fault...

In one day, I will recover...

However, today I still miss you... Miss You, Miss my beloved you... so much.......

Might Be.... I will Not Going By This Year.....

HAHA... Sorry Everyone, when you reading this post, you will receive a news that I might be not going to UK by this year...

Why?

First,

I cannot deny that my English current result was not satisfied, thus I have to take the English course before I start my main course. Besides, there is no enough time to let me finish my English before I start my year two course... Undoubtedly, that's not my final destiny.... My English final result will be come out in 30 July.....

Then?

Then, I have to consider about my parents finance's problem... Although, they said that they have no problem, I still cannot ignore their silly excuses. In addition, my sister hasn't graduated from her university. If I go UK by next year, it will be the time after my sister's graduation.

Others?

Yes, it is because i also don't know about the University is whether good or not. Just wait for KahSum and YingLow to tell me whether the University is suck or not. Then i would have a good direction to consider where should I go . Admittedly, I'm joking.... =)

Some more, If I help my parents to save money which counts in fews K, and they will give me 20~30 percents. I will appreciate that. It is because my money is locked by them, and I have no enough pocket money, so I need some to buy something that they thought it is wasted, but that's what I want. Obviously, I'm lying again..... XD

Ok lar.... In summary, the point which is relevant to this post only in first paragraph.... Others are rubbish... Good Night........ =)

Until I get over you...

Woke up today thinking of you ....
Another night that I made my way through ...
So many dreams still left in my mind ...
But they can never come true ...
I press rewind and remember when ...
I close my eyes and I’m with you again ...
But in the end I can still feel the pain every time I hear your name ...

The sun won’t shine since you went away ...
Seems like the rain’s falling every day ...
There’s just one heart, where there once was two ...
But that’s the way it’s gotta be ...
‘til I get over you…

Walked through the park, in the evening air ...
I heard a voice and I thought you were there ...
I run away but I just can’t escape ...
Memories of you everywhere ...
They say that time will dry the tears ...
But true love burns for a thousand years ...
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday ...
Just to know that I could have you here ...

The sun won’t shine since you went away ...
Seems like the rain’s falling every day ...
There’s just one heart, where there once was two ...
But that’s the way it’s gotta be ...
‘til I get over you…

When will this river of tears stop fallin’ ...
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone ...
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’...
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own ...
But it’s so hard to let go ...

The sun won’t shine since you went away ...
Seems like the rain’s falling every day ...
There’s just one heart, where there once was two ...
But that’s the way it’s gotta be ...
‘til I get over you…

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Today, You are my Amaryllis...

Amaryllis:

___ The amaryllis bulb is famous for its capability to produce flowers for up to 75 years. Amaryllis flowers represent radiant beauty. Order beautiful amaryllis for someone who is beautiful form inside and outside.

___ Neither the time when we were still together, nor the time we have broken apart, your beautiful.... Comes from inside and outside......... There is none can compare......

___ Attracted by you, I am unable to extricate myself. Amaryllis's beautiful is use to describe you, the only difference between Amaryllis and you which is its life. Its life is short, but your beautiful is forever............

____ At least at here :

___ Love you as usual ___

I hav to Re-consider a,d make the final decision....

___ The day, I passed the letter to him... He saw and read it, his expression made me guity. Before that, I though everything is fine... Everyone encouraged me to go and fulfill my dream, recognize the world and so on...

___ Thus, I lost so many things to process it. Obviously, it included my beloved. I'm not a good boyfriend, might be I never put myself in her position, so I hurted her like hell. That's what she said. I then can do anything to beg her forgiveness? Of course no!

___ Today I found out I was too selfish. Except her, I treated everyone as the same. I never consider what they thought, and I did my own decision. I did not care what would happen when I made this decision. I'm so suffering..............

___ I'm the second child in my family. My elder sister who is older than me by 3 years old, my younger brother is also younger than me by 3 years old. He is in senior two now. One more year after, he will go oversea to further his education. My sister is still studying in Australia.

___ She is smart, that's undeniable. So, her future is bright... Maybe brighter than me, if we calculate the probability. I'm going to UK soon. ( when my Ielts passed)

___ UK maybe is a heaven for me, but I never consider it will also be hell for my parents. Everyone ask me to go. My parents SURE can settle my expenses, tuition fees. Actually, i never asked them before. They encouraged me to go where I like, I just only think the place where I want to go. When I go, is it really good for them. Will they do anything silly thing because of me.

___ I have no confident to say my future is bright. I will be the millionaire or billionaire in the future? My dream, before age of 30, I would like to drive a Audi A4 ? Kidding... i'm damn fucking stupid. That's not impossible, but that's not impossible for others, is impossible to the fucking stupid me.

___ I promised Miss Tan who to become my farm's owner. When can I have the capability to buy a farm. Will it really in a highland, or in Malaysia's small village? Chill~ I'm damn silly....

___ First, I have to apologize to Eric Low. I do not know whether I can follow you to go there or not. I do not want to bring tears to reach UK. I'm unfilial. If I cant go, please forgive me to be a untrusted person.

___ Second, I have to apologize to my parents. I do not whether i have brought too much burden to you. I never mention it. I hope you two can talk to me seriously, politely. I have to know your condition. I do not need to go UK, it's doesn't matter. I can apply taylor scholarship and ptptn to finish my degree in Msia. I do not want you're so work hard because an unfilial son. Maybe I'm not valuable to let you waste money. Jie is going to finish his secondary school too. He still need money to go futher his education. Did I just waste you money?

___ Finally, I have to apologize to Miss Tan. I'm sorry that I hurt you like hell. If I can went back by the time travel, I would not try to recognize you. I'm so stupid..... So many things, I just realized in this moment. I have lost too much. I have wasted too much because of my unfilial, my silly, my stubborn, my stupid...

___ Please forgive me, everyone.... I'm not a kind man, good friend as you wish.

___ I'm sorry, Dad, Mum....

Our Story~ Ending

___These few days, I drank a lot of Milo (Milo in tin) in the morning. That is the only thing i would buy when i stood in front of the machine. I might have some special feeling on it. That is the starting point, and it reminded me to be end.

___Once, we were drinking Milo and staying in the same place. Both of us are happiness, joyful and so on. Today, we are drinking Milo and staying in the different place. Both of us are suffering, grieve and so on. What is the difference? It's liked north pole and south pole, it's liked sky and ocean. It cannot be linking anymore.

___I realized the truth, I determined to stop my idiot's doings. I'm so sorry to disturb you for these few years. I'm bastard that I only realized by now. Death is ending, gone is ending, stop is also ending. Today, the time in my mind stop from now, proved that I stop everything, end everything by myself. It's ending....

___When will the time be going to restart? When the north pole and south pole are in the same latitude line. When water flows to sky; the cloud appear in ocean.

_______________________________________________Ending~

Our story~A NEVER Replied Message

There was a message, there was an e-mail...

sent to the same place, vanished in the same place.

I tried to find out the truth,

the result which is such as nothing on the white paper.

Nothing, that's only what I get from that place.

The strange place, I called it 'Xanne'.

There was one day,

I could not remember whether I'm drunk or anything else,

I sent a message to Xanne, to show my confession.

Accidently, i received the reply that i ever have.

I built a lot of bases, tears, sweat at there,

Obviously, my beloved is at there too.

The day, I tried to send a message to open the gate of Xanne.

There was no any echo came back to me.

Why you did not believe me?

Why you did not believe my true hearted?

Why you want to place me at the outside of Xanne?

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Our story~Continuous

Memory is untrustworthy. When we are dependent on it, all of our beloved will be disappeared in one day.

I didn't trust the ability of my brain. That's also not proven that you are not a valuable person to put in my brain.

None will be alive after 100 years, even you are the great scienctist in the world. After 100 years, memory will be gone. We will open our mind, if we still haven't died. Everything will be going to change, even the Earth.

Today, I would like to recall and catch the feeling of mine in this moment, write down all of our story. Internet is a unlimited space, thus I would like to awake my memory in hundred years later. That's not impossible, that's love between you and me.

That's how I can save our story, and awake our heart in thousands years millions years later.

Although we do not have the chance to love each other by today.
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Thanks 'S'

This afternoon, i went to Pyramid for having my lunch... Passed by the ice-skating court, few people enjoyed in that... An attractive shadow appeared and passed my eyesight at the moment.

How a beautiful girl enjoyed playing the ice-skating. Your slightly brown hair, wearing the pink colour jacket. Although I did not see your face. However, all the colours you wore, looked familiar with someone.... That's unforgettable girl.....

___My basketball shirts were printed her name.....
___Every night, I am holding the pillow that she gave me....
___My phone's background was set by her photo....
___My blog, msn, skype, FB; all of the passwords using the number which are related to her...
___Some of the clothes, wallet, key-ring, even my signature are also related to her....

How am I going to forget her.... Can anyone please teach me...... God, can YOU please give her a reason to hate me... Thus, I possibly can be released... Strugglling, suffering...

Luckily you are still accompanying me, thank you 'S'... I know that you hope me that i can accept you... Give me some time, i will accept you to become my only one, just like I'm the only one in your heart...
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Forever Scar

Since you'd left..........
Since I'd gone...........

We did not leave anything for each other unless the scar.......

I cant sleep at night, because the scar would be broken and bleeding again.....

I have to experience the process from the scar broke and condensed again day by day......

There is no exception.... The pain will not reduce, meanwhile it is increasing day by day.....

I'm worrying you.... I just want your news which tell me you're allright.

I cant bear it.... I'm going mad......... going down..............
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A visitor's reply

I promise I will continue to finish our story in one day......

If you have confidence in me.....

Before that... Please be happy..... The photos were seen like sad, tear was still in your eyes.....

Pain is slashing my heart..... and your tear is the murder...

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Insomnia

I dun know whether how many days I have had the insomnia symptom. The only thing which can be inquired is the insomnia has been started since THE INCIDENT was happened.

How hard I control myself and not to drop any tear in front of people. How hard that I constrain the feeling and continue to prepare my final exam.

Recently, white hairs are using their fastest to be shown in front of me. If people say, the amount of the white hairs can represent a person long for his lover, this legend is not suitable to describe on me.

Midnight, this is the time to let people who will be having a sweet dream. However, I cannot get any nightmare or sweet dream. You have left from my life. Even my dream, it is also afraid to disturb you. Hence, I’m using my own way to miss you all over again.

When will I recover? How long should I spend to cure this?

Please do not tell me I should use my entire life, because I have only left around half or more life. That’s not enough.

Should I look for the other ways?

No, I will not. Please allow my selfishness to keep some memories which were about you. I will not keep for whole life; it will only take around few decades.

You eventually will forget me in one day… and me too… The blog is only used to be my lifenote, remind me to fulfill those I have not done and remember the person who was important in my life...

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~残~

晨星逝，日替月；爱易生，情难灭。
轮昼夜，更四季；不了情，终难忘。

伤易愈，疤不散；不死解，永生痛。
念生愁，愁即痛；痛生病，病即残。

身将灭，心亦死；把酒欢，千杯少。
绝情天，降寡人；泪两行，斩不断。

月光下，独木旁；一泪池，长一兽。
兽眼瞎，泪仍流；似即生，心已亡。

Hi~ How are you ... ^.^

......How are you...

I hope that you will be fine...

......Are you still online to do your homework and plan to do until 2~3 o clock...

Please remember to take a good rest... You know, your body is not as strong as the OX, but your temper is. I hope that you will listen, that's good for you, not me.

......Do you still sneezing...

Please take care yourself... Remember to sheathe the blanket when you want to sleep.

......What is your feeling now when you're looking the post...

I miss you... mix some unavoidably, sadness, impulsion and guity...

......What do you want to tell me now...

I LOVE you... As same as before, as after, as future, as... forever...

What were you and What are you

You were a diamond. You were beautiful, rare, effulge. When I got you, I used all my energy to protect you... Prevent the thief, robber and everything that might hurt you.

You were my favourite fruit juice. You were one kind of fruit juice that was the first choice I would order. Nothing special, normal and so on. I loved such as the sport which I liked to do. You asked why, my answer always be "Because I like, there is no reason.". Such as plain water, you did not know why you would drink it either you were thirsty or not.

You are my queen. When you are here, my country is peace, nicety, harmony. Everything is amazing, nice, wonderful. When you were left for awhile, everything starts to lost control. Disaster, war, violence, and all of the bads come together. Everything is messy, uncontrolable.

You are a Moon. You will not lighten by yourself, but you will reflect the light of other people. You are not the biggest or brightest star in my life, but you are the most important star in my world. One day, if you were missing, flood and ebb will be lost control. You could be missing, all the human and animals will be going to vanish too.

Everything become a blank paper. There is no colour, no picture... ...

I Love You, within true or false. To be or not to be... ... Depend on what was I and what am I... on your mind... in your heart...

Photograph

Photograph is only one kind of memorable memory to memorize. It’s still belong to past.

“Can you give me one of your photos?”

“Can we take a photo together?”

“No…No…No” is the replied he was always given.

Normally, people visited some places, took the photograph to record and prove they came to there before. Even happy or sadness, those are memorable.

One day, when ‘forever’ has its limit, and comes over soon. Photographs become the most trustiness object in your life. Forever has gone, photos are still here. You can hate the lie of forever, please believe that second when you took the photograph. You were happiness, at least at that moment.

None can back to past, past be belonging to us. None can take away or destroy it.

Forever has gone, chase and keep the things which are still belonging to us. That’s our treasure. Look forward. Be good, be love, and be happy to treat them.

Dinner in Italiannies

Due to the reason 97 > 70, my 'BEST' friend who is called "RAJ", treats me and ERIC LOW to come Italiannies. ERIC LOW who actually make a profit from me lar, because he did not bet in our competition. I explain more detail. RAJ, this 'timid chicken' felt that he's sure lose to ERIC, so he won't allow ERIC LOW to take part the competition.......


Pasta, spaghetti, pizza are the food which we ordered, drinks we ordered the heineken. Food is really nice. If i have chance, I will come back again, and I would not use my money to pay the bill.... >.<

After finishing the food, RAJ paid the bill. Both of them had almost finish their Heineken. Mine? still got half. I was really full. My stomach really cannot fill anything inside. However, due to a word "CHICKEN", i did not want to be a CHICKEN, I would be brave, and straight away to finish the 250mL Heineken at once.

That's not meaning I cannot drink, I was too full. When I finished the 250mL heineken, whole body was stunned. I cannot move, I realised I would vomit if I moved. However, two CHICKEN were keep laughing beside me, and made me laugh.

In the end, you will know what was happening. Yes, I was so lousy and I vomitted. Luckily, there was only one couple mentioned that I vomitted.

Quater of my food was spitted out..... Whole body is also getting well..... Due to the Heineken, I feel quite warm and quite sleepy now..... Do abit assignment, I'm going to sleep.....

Good Night....... =)

Memory~2

Since you did not look at my blog for a long time, I changed a lot of template in my blog. Totally, you would feel that it's quite weird. It's totally different with the blog before.

Hope you guys will enjoy when you're reading my blog. You can give comment or advice to let me improve the design of my blog.

Brown colour background, which mean the memory is belong to past. Past is only suited to use brown colour. Night Angel, come from my english NI-GEL. I did not wish that I can become a god. The wish I have which is..... I would like to become the angel who is only belong to you. You no need to share your happiness for me, i just want to look at you every night, see whether you sleep very well.

Animation slide, which is represented what I'm thinking every night. Just give me a

=)

when you see me in the next time.

It is enough for me, for everything.....

Du~~~~Du~~~

The sadness melody is circling in the room.

“Should we close to the happiness when we rose up our feet toward the sky?” That was the last call between two of them. He knew, but she did not mention. He tried to remember all her emotion, her voice and everything. By the time, she was just silent and listened what he said.

“In one day, if I’m not longer in the world and if you would accidently think of me, please remember I loved you so much at once. Even now I told you I would forget you at once but I closed my eyes, tears started dropping. I knew that I did not love you anymore, which are the lie I cheat myself.”

“Please believe I love you, as before, all the time, and forever. In one day, when I’m not longer in your life, if you felt that you need to find a more suitable person, the answer I give you which is go ahead to chase your happiness. However, I would not treat other person as good as you.”

“Don’t cry, open wise your eyes, keep the tears inside your eyes. It’s the time; you should learn the changing from fairytale to reality.” Be brave, smile to continue your life.”
Phone is hanging up. Another side of phone… Du~~Du~~~~~, tears has been get wet whole her shirt.

HE and SHE

HE and SHE recognized each other since they were young. When HE recalled back to the first meet with her, everything is still very apparent. That day, what kind of fate arranged them to sit together in the class in their secondary school? It was amazing. HE was happy with that, but HE never ever mentioned that tragedy was growing up since the fate pulled them together.
HE was sad and there was no any appetite. The day they exchanged the ICQ, MSN, and the phone number, everything looked good. They never ever knew that will bring them suffering in the future. A great legend was created by them, there was a calamity was also waiting to present when the legend was broken.

Beyond question, they became a couple after one year. Everyone felt that they are happiness and never ever gave any comment to them. Low flame, they never ever try to mention and put it off. One day, the great fire was burning and damaging them. They were injured.
HE was crying. The day, they promised each other they will continue their love to the eternity liked the fairy tale. “Yes, I do”, “Yes, I promise” these kind of sentences were still turning in his mind. The day, HE broke and SHE rejected. Tragedy started to disturb their normal life.
How can they do? Keep it silent. That was the way they used at the same time. Both of them knew that where the problem was. However, none wanted to spoil it out. It will be very peace before the hurricane came. They planted a bomb by themselves.

The day, HE could not fall asleep. HE recalled that the bomb was exploded. HE wanted to avoid the bomb became bigger and bigger, HE tried to explode it. Will HE reduce the power of the bomb? Certainly, it was impossible. Bomb broke the legend, polite broke the communication, and true heart broke the relationship.

The tear was still dropping. They loved each other that HE knew. HE wanted to explain but HE could not. The day HE planned to explain to her, the day SHE has gone aboard.
Mirage was created by the suffering. It was not suit to him, because it was too late. No wonder how he suffered, mirage would not give him any chance. HE was sad, disappointed, and regret. The time, HE wanted to show his love without using his mouth. That time, HE wanted to beg her forgiveness. However, his true heart never ever convey to her.

The day, before he stepped in the coffin, HE was thinking regret. HE still owned her a meal which SHE wanted him to cook for her during her birthday. A ring that to identity of her in his heart. At that moment, HE dropped his last tear and HE realized that SHE liked to fly kite. And HE never ever accompanied her to play once time.

~Silent~

In the deserted street,
I’m looking for someone.

To pour out frame of mind,
got the reply by none.
Made the decision in the end,
Be a neighbor with lonesome.

Our love,
like the scene you always passed by.
It’s always processing,
however the footsteps will never stop for me.

I give you my love silently,
to exchange caring from you occasionally.
Originally is an open relationship,
but I can’t have a name in it.

You said love such as cloud.
Change its shape randomly,
float on sky leisurely.
It’s only called pretty.

I trust in the end,
pleasant to listen your reasons.

I give you my love silently,
to exchange your concerned occasionally.
Its two people dating,
but it’s become a party by you.

I give you my love silently,
be determined from start till now.
I thought I will be going on,
But I realized that love should be replied.

I give you my love silently,
with my tear’s capricious on my face.

In the end,
I realized that fate is used to explain,
the incident of our meeting is unpredictable,
but the future of us is predictable and can be building by us.
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<3
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C's

C,
the mark of result.
That is my destiny which I can try to change it, but I didn’t.

See,
the fatty boy is crying.
That is my emotion which I can choose, but I can’t control.

Sick,
will you sick? Don’t act please.
That is the reflection of people when I told them I was sick.

Sea,
a place which I like to go.
That is the place which can listen my mind and accept tears.

C,
a shape of moon.
That is the mirror which can reflect all the people who I miss.

See,
we look at our eyes each other.
There is only one in our life.

Sick,
when your life is in danger.
We know that we’re caring each other.

Sea,
will be beside full house in the future.
The house will be built but cannot without you.
And happiness will become the only word which people describe us.

Phew.....

Once,
I told to hurricane: I’m sorry…
It blew toward me rapidly, without giving me a chance,
and blew away and expelled everything within me.

Once,
I told to storm: I’m sorry…
It blew toward me violently, refused my apologize,
and destroyed everything at that moment.

Once,
I told to gale: I’m sorry…
It blew toward me fleetly, accepted my apologize,
but still refused to exonerate my crime,
ignored my invocation, harmed itself and damaged my life.

Once,
I told to breeze: I’m sorry...
It blew toward me gently, accepted my apologize,
forgave me, surrounded me, cuddled me, kissed me.

Today,
I told to wind: I’m sorry…
I hope that it will bring my apologize,
blow toward you to beg for your forgiveness.

U.K Dreamz......

Almost one hundred and fifty more days, my U.K dream is going to come true..... I will continue for my further education.



Why do I want to go oversea for my education ? I don't know....



However, I realised that is one of the chances to give me the experiences that I even have. I know my personality. If I were a fish, I don't wish to live in a pond, I want to swim in Ocean. I will scare, I will worry many things which I concern, but none will know that through my emotional expression.



What do I want ? I don't know.....



There are something weighed heavily on my mind. I can cook, I can clean, I can take care myself, these abilities are enough to let me living alone in oversea. However, I'm not going alone, I have friends who are going with me.



Lonely ?? It won't happen on me.

Finances ?? My parents, my family those ask me not to worry. They will fully support me to go there. Extra expenses, I can handle by myself. I know that I can.



Girl ?? I can say nothing on this problem. I know that she doesn't wish I go so far and so long. The only thing that i want to do for her is... LOVE Her.. More and More......

Are there many intersting things waiting for me ?? Am I excited or happy to await the day coming ?? It's unknown answer.

Day by day, I count that one by one. Those objects, human, incidents that are worried by me, I understand that I thought too much. Nothing will change even without me.

I'm going to go U.K. Even my body is there, I know that Malaysia has too many things that is still connecting with my heart, I can't give up to break them and not to worry them. If I change, that's not me anymore.

Down... Down... Down.....

Everyone... Be happy when I'm not around you..... Wait me back.... I will fulfill my promise.....

My farm... my land of idyllic beauty... I believe that U.K is the place which can let me fulfill my simple wish...

Be Smile... =)

The 2nd chinese poem in my blog...... << 缘>>

前世缘，
今世约，
相思相伴而泪别。

今世诀，
来世缘，
月夜月下续前缘。

牛郎盼，
织女望，
七夕喜鹊来建桥。

二轮钟，
东阳升，
彩桥逝而泪如雨。

今观此，
即缘之，
悄悄留笔予评之。

维谢之，
叹之，
圆世有缘而圆又缘。


=)

The 1st chinese poem in my blog...... << 留~恋>>

昔日情犹在，人事已全非；
吾望鸳鸯分离，欲惜亦无奈。
万物亿中结缘，情缘需千载；
即情丝犹在，屈膝以惜之。

系铃人祸之，寻解铃人解之；
友人把酒谈心，情人终生相伴。
吾不忍鸳鸯分离，千载姻缘散；
但愿人长久，喜酒三思而后来........... =)

Monopoly

"If our life such like playing monopoly, even how many times we have the chances to restart the game, the result will be the same."

"Because you are my destiny."

Yes, the quote which is copied by me from this show above. This show is quite touch for me. Anyone who furtunate in reading my blog, I introduce this show for you.

I copied one more quote for my gal that is what I wan to tell her. "No wonder which stop that you want to go, when you still accompany me, that's only called happiness."

SorRy SoRry

Super Junior sang that song, I felt that is funny.
O~ I regretted since I saw your photos in the trip.
Repeatly I saw the photos,
Repeatly I felt pain.
Your lonely I cant consider when I sent you go.

That's my fault.
X X , that's the mark I give myself as become a boyfriend.
Pls forgive me and allow me to love you more and more.

When New Year meet the Valentine, you will celebrate...?

Gal,
Lonely consort with me during the New Year,
Our heart are still linking to celebrate our Valentine's day.

I ask: "When is the New Year; when is the Valentine?"
You ans: "is now, is today, is 14 of February."

You ask: " Where should we go for celebration?"
I ans: "Stay at your home and have a dinner with our parents separately."

You're cry and ask: " Why.? You don't love me at all..........."
I ans: "Haiz, my pity gal...." and ask: " Will I treat you very well in Valentine's day? How about other days?"

You ans: "Quite OK... No difference at all actually.."
I ans: "You know why? "

You ans and ask: " I don't know, why?"
I ans: " When we fall in love, Valentine's day is never leave..."


Happy Valentine's Day.....
Although we can't celebrate together.......
besides today,
we still got 364 Valentine's day............ =)
I wait you back..........

Help Haiti, Save Haiti, Love Haiti

As Haiti's earthquake shaking,
Buildings of Haiti toppling, one after another victim dying;
People excavate the victim who still living,
Whole world blessing after the disaster, at the same time their tear dropping unstoppable.

Lost Dream, Lost house, Lost their Family,
Smile gone, Naive gone, Happiness gone;
They Help, They Give, They Donate,
I Call, They Call, You Call?

Reality does not need you to wipe their tear,
Two over three population of Haiti, we cant to wipe everyone;
One over three has left,
The rest of people need the roof which can obstruct the sunlight and rain.
They need food's energy to build a new Home.

Do not sad because we never know how their feeling,
Do not sympathize because that is not their need;
Do not ignore because they really need our help,
Please donate and help them if you are able to.

hopeforhaitinow.org

which is the website can let you understand that how Haiti's people are in suffering.

1877-99-42484 ( 1877-99-HAITI) this donation number only for USA & Canada

1773-360-0205 for international.

Thanks if you can give in charity.......

For Mum's 13irthday........

God gave a gift to world when you were born,
who's kind, who give birth to me;
Who teach the students good or bad,
who contribute to the world;
Who spend energy to others rather than herself.

Because of you, our world has been changed,
you make a difference when she touched each life she entered;
Your ripples of kindness fully filled in my life,
your birthday becomes my special holiday;
because you are my special treasure.

For all what you've done,
That is my honor, that is love;
I wish that the love you've shown to others,
return to you, multiplied;

I wish that you have the happiest birthday,
and more, many more;
So that you will be appreciated by others and me,
I am grateful to you, as much as I do.

I LOVE YOU, MUM
And I wish that all the good things come to you.
Wealth, Health, Love, Friendship all belong to you =)
Happy Birthday, Mum........

Written by your lovely son,
HAN