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Nothing to say actually... No word can describe what feeling I have now...

I'm really tiring... You're really busy too...

Internet slow, no water supply, emo-ing, sadness, lonely....

I cant feel, cant feel....

I go for asleep d.......

Good Night......

A Peaceful Raining Day..

__ Peace..? A nice word that most of the people wish to see... Japan was damaged by the earthquake, Tsunami attacked its surrounding countries... Nuclear manufactory occurred the explosion, the radiation sources are threatening people health... Nigel, who is the one not involved in these disasters, discuss the peace at here......

__ Libya occurred the war, how many residents of that are ready to sacrifice for their country... And how many residents who are dreaming for the 'peace'...

__For those Libya's innocent people, Run... Run...... Run away to find a place and keep your safety... Men, stand up and protect your families, keep their safety... That's your responsibility to do that... Before the war get worse, think a better solution to solve all the issues... Just run or surrender when you are caught... Don't try to pick the the weapons and defense... You are not soldier, you would be killed when you are seen by the allied forces.

__For US, England, French's soldiers, please think about your family before you press the guns... Please try to avoid to hurt those innocent people...

__ I don't know which situation should I be... The war will not stop just because of the words what I said... Please stop the war immediately...

__World has been crying...Sun and moon has disappeared these two days, there is only left the tears of the world, dropping unstoppable...

__My peace represent the quite atmosphere in my life... My peace represent my brain is clear to think about who am I... My peace represent my Pei is angry with me and ignoring me...

___ Peace... show me your true meaning... I need the true peace for me, for world, for everything...

I'm so sorry. . . . . . . . .

How are you, Nigel...

__Recently, there are quite a lots of stuffs to do... Refers to first week's note, we were informed that we are going to have a mid-term exam in the week. For today, it has been week four already...

__Refer to my previous post, you knew that I have to prepare my ielts test... However, actually I dare to apply the date... It's because the mid-term test has not been confirmed yet... My original plan which is taking the ielts at 16 April... That is Saturday, after that my holiday is following to celebrate that I have finished the test.. ( Although it's success or not)

__There is one problem which occurred in a point that people never mention. I have only learned three weeks of lectures. Actually there is only quite few thing to study, it does not seems like we shall have a exam come from these 2 weeks notes. Besides that, lecturer did not mention about the test in the next week... Thus, I don't know when will the mid-term be... According to the culture, we always have the holiday after the exam. So I'm worry my mid-term will crash my ielts' date...

__Ietls' fee actually dare to get it from parents too... My private account is not under my control too, where to find the Vitamin M??

Take from parents? If they would scold me, I'm still feeling ok... The thing I'm worry which is the disappointed from them... I prefer to see their fierce face more than see their shaking head... This month, my expenses are really quite heavy too...

__A lots of pressures come together to me... Or I should say that I haven't settled one, the second one has been reached... Feel stress... White hairs found the good timing to grow up too... Suddenly, I become a old man if compare with ME one month ago...

Stress... Unhappy... Worry... Scary... filled up all my brain... And myonlyxp..... sigh.......forget it...

__Although this is my blog, but I treat YOU as another person... None to talk, so I just talk to you... If you can help to send my troubles to those people I plan to do so... I appreciate that... Or else, your silent has given me the best support...

Ielts (Part 1)

__ Recently, I'm really quite lazy to prepare my ielts...

Me: Time is a problem...

You: Is it.?

__I can continue finding the excuses if I like... Who can stop me to do that... But that's really make me quite uncomfortable... Sometime I found a motivation to do that, but it's not longer...so.. so.. so.. I do not need to continue, you will know the answer.

__ Recently, i do not know why am I so popular to the people who are not very close to me. However, I could find the intersection point among them. It is because they were asking me a same question... I arranged the rank depend on the level of concern.

__ No.1 ----> Eric Low

This fellow who is the one non-stopping to remind me, ask me those questions...

_____ Have you tested your Ielts ? Passed ady ? When are you going to test that ?_____

Just imagine his smiling face (don't know what bad idea is he thinking at that time ), I'm really on fire and wish to shout to him... " Can you please stop laughing and shut up!!"

I knew that's his way to encourage me to improve myself... But I REALLY DISLIKE HIS LAUGHING FACE LAR!!

__ No.2 ---> Eric's parents

At least, I have listened three times that either one of them asking these question to their son or daughter.

If there is a day, you come to my blog... I just want to talk to you... Thanks... Uncle Auntie, don't worry... I will try my best... Of course I will not let any 'bad news' spread to your ears again...

__ No.3 ---> Eric's sister

I don't know whether she is summoned to ask me these questions or what else... The time she's asking, I can find her brother's shadow from her... Really cannot reduce my hatred to Eric Low...

All right All right... That's all for today... Good Luck Nigel ..

When the Life is so Quite....

When the life is so quite, the time I can listen my heart beat... The old fan is still playing its rusty music, but I never felt that's quite noisy too.

I'm recalling my past... How good was I... How bad was I... There is a result which can explain everything what had I done...

That is a bad habit that i need to remove permanently... I'm trying trying and trying to find to solution to quit it. How am I going to do? Currently, no Idea...

How's the habit grow up, it's started from long long ago... Speechless and that's not proud for me to share with others. so I skip this...

When the time people are making decision, there are an angel and demon come out to affect their idea... That's the reason why making a decision is so difficult... For me, there is no angel, however there are two demons come and let me to choose the solutions which one is more suitable... In the end, we should know... No matter which one I choose, that's definitely wrong too...

Thus, I hurt a lot of people... Especially my girl... then parents... family... and friends...

It's so difficult to be removed clearly... How do I confirm whether it's removed or not... how how how...？

My sun is impatient and horizon is going to bring her away... If i'm still remain the same... When my sun left, night is going to accompany me for entire life...

I have not a exact solution to solve it, so i won't be trying to say anything... Action speak louder than words right... So I will work hard to change...

CAn do it can do it, can do it... I can do it... So do you...