Insomnia

I dun know whether how many days I have had the insomnia symptom. The only thing which can be inquired is the insomnia has been started since THE INCIDENT was happened.

How hard I control myself and not to drop any tear in front of people. How hard that I constrain the feeling and continue to prepare my final exam.

Recently, white hairs are using their fastest to be shown in front of me. If people say, the amount of the white hairs can represent a person long for his lover, this legend is not suitable to describe on me.

Midnight, this is the time to let people who will be having a sweet dream. However, I cannot get any nightmare or sweet dream. You have left from my life. Even my dream, it is also afraid to disturb you. Hence, I’m using my own way to miss you all over again.

When will I recover? How long should I spend to cure this?

Please do not tell me I should use my entire life, because I have only left around half or more life. That’s not enough.

Should I look for the other ways?

No, I will not. Please allow my selfishness to keep some memories which were about you. I will not keep for whole life; it will only take around few decades.

You eventually will forget me in one day… and me too… The blog is only used to be my lifenote, remind me to fulfill those I have not done and remember the person who was important in my life...

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