The New Requirement

__ Today, I talked crap with one of my friends in Malaysia. Initially, I just wanna tease him whether he did use to his new job or not, when will he quit that job. Fortunately, he told me he would only do until end of this month, he has found another new job again. OMG, hahaha I was so surprise too when I got this news.

__ In the conversation, he asked me that how can I accept to stay alone in UK without any accompanies. He said his girlfriend is not with him now too, although that's just last for few days. He already cannot accept the lonely. Then we continued to move on to the relationship part.

__ " How's your status? " " Got any new girlfriend there? " those are all the questions he asked me. I just told him that I was very tired once I think of this type of question again and again. I said that I do not want to woo any girl anymore. I will use the time to let myself to become the most attractive, perfect, Mr right in the world, and let the girls take the number queue up to woo me. I believe I have the qualification, but now is not perfect yet.

__ After that, he continued bluff with me and ask what's the condition should the girls have, so far you will accept them. I suddenly spoke out one. " I want the girl whose eyes will smile to me, even she is not smiling at that moment. " We argued quite a long time, because he said every girl will have the smiling eyes once they truly smile to you. But I disagree his opinion. I want her eyes smile first before she smile, do not want to see the smiling eyes after she smiled. Hahaha It's quite a bit complicated.

Just like this... It will be always cute...

__ He gave me some examples from actress, or his mutual friends, I admitted those picture he showed me, the girls has the smiling eyes, but still not the type I fancy. He pissed off and asked me, " I do not think your one would have smiling eyes too, although I did not see her before, I know she only has a cool face. How do you explain this? " I was silent for few seconds and answered him, " you never know how cute she is when she is smiling... " That's his turn to be silent. I won.

The Disturbing Rainy Night

Midnight 0100, it's supposed to be a very silent night, but I was suddenly awake. Probably I still remembered that I have not taken the shower after school. After few more hours, I need to wake up again and I need to take shower again, why don't I just straight to take once in the morning. Is that the reason to wake me up?

You will never get wet in rainy day, once I am beside you.

Start confusing.... 1 minute... 2 minutes... 5 minutes.... 10 minutes.. gone....

Di... Da... Di...Da...Di...Da... the droplets sound followed my heartbeat, both of them start synchronous to play the most lonely music in the world. In UK, it is rare to see or hear any lighting or thunder, therefore this rain is so gentle such as it does not want to disturb anyone in the dream. However, every single droplet of the rain is creating different type of ripples in the lake of my heart.

The inverted image in the lake after the ripples shown, another familiar face is shown up, but that's not me.
( sigh... ) I think I am dreaming right now... ( Wake up.. wake up... )

The music in the laptop is playing " Listen to your heart" now, followed by " eyes on me"... Is my heart asking me to face the fact ? Is it asking me to see properly what's the image in the middle of the lake? That's the truth why am I awake in this period again?

Have you slept? Or still busy in your work? I do not want to disturb you as what the rain did to me, but hope you will not feel lonely especially in rainy night... nightz......

An Unsolved Problem

__ Recently, I suddenly recalled back a sentence from a friend. He's holding a good degree but working in a low-paid job. Many people tried to ask him, "why are you still continuing working there, since you have gained some experiences. You deserve to get a better job, do not continue stay in this company again." I was one of them who persuaded him to change job too. By the way, he gave me a very funny answer which is, " I know it, I just want to see how's the company going to the end. The company provides more tasks and the low-paid to their worker, boss does not want to hire more workers to share the burden. I wanna see if there are systematic errors all happened in once, how's the company stop processing and how much finance loss will they have."

__ ( Laughing ) Won't you think that is a very funny reason?? When the time he told me this, I respected to his decision too ( Of course, after laughing ). Today I might meet the same problem, but not in job. I mean I might use the same method to solve my problem. 

 

for appearing in my life. 

__ I met some problem, it has been disturbing me for a long long time. I cannot solve the problem, therefore I wrote down my feeling almost everyday, and sticky to the wall in my room. I would like to see how's this going to the end. Will it be solved successfully? Will it be a happy ending or either. How long will I need to use or how long will I use to forget this? 

__ For now, I do not know. Let's see then......