The Last

This will be my last post in the blog... 

Nothing much to say...

I just want to end all of those in my brain... No matter the past of me or future of my dream... It will just stop in this moment...

This blog is overloaded, It has brought too much sadness to me... It's time to stop recording my sadness...

I will use the rest of my life to continue writing my story... In new blog (maybe)...

~ to be continue in next chapter ~

The New Requirement

__ Today, I talked crap with one of my friends in Malaysia. Initially, I just wanna tease him whether he did use to his new job or not, when will he quit that job. Fortunately, he told me he would only do until end of this month, he has found another new job again. OMG, hahaha I was so surprise too when I got this news.

__ In the conversation, he asked me that how can I accept to stay alone in UK without any accompanies. He said his girlfriend is not with him now too, although that's just last for few days. He already cannot accept the lonely. Then we continued to move on to the relationship part.

__ " How's your status? " " Got any new girlfriend there? " those are all the questions he asked me. I just told him that I was very tired once I think of this type of question again and again. I said that I do not want to woo any girl anymore. I will use the time to let myself to become the most attractive, perfect, Mr right in the world, and let the girls take the number queue up to woo me. I believe I have the qualification, but now is not perfect yet.

__ After that, he continued bluff with me and ask what's the condition should the girls have, so far you will accept them. I suddenly spoke out one. " I want the girl whose eyes will smile to me, even she is not smiling at that moment. " We argued quite a long time, because he said every girl will have the smiling eyes once they truly smile to you. But I disagree his opinion. I want her eyes smile first before she smile, do not want to see the smiling eyes after she smiled. Hahaha It's quite a bit complicated.

Just like this... It will be always cute...

__ He gave me some examples from actress, or his mutual friends, I admitted those picture he showed me, the girls has the smiling eyes, but still not the type I fancy. He pissed off and asked me, " I do not think your one would have smiling eyes too, although I did not see her before, I know she only has a cool face. How do you explain this? " I was silent for few seconds and answered him, " you never know how cute she is when she is smiling... " That's his turn to be silent. I won.

The Disturbing Rainy Night

Midnight 0100, it's supposed to be a very silent night, but I was suddenly awake. Probably I still remembered that I have not taken the shower after school. After few more hours, I need to wake up again and I need to take shower again, why don't I just straight to take once in the morning. Is that the reason to wake me up?

You will never get wet in rainy day, once I am beside you.

Start confusing.... 1 minute... 2 minutes... 5 minutes.... 10 minutes.. gone....

Di... Da... Di...Da...Di...Da... the droplets sound followed my heartbeat, both of them start synchronous to play the most lonely music in the world. In UK, it is rare to see or hear any lighting or thunder, therefore this rain is so gentle such as it does not want to disturb anyone in the dream. However, every single droplet of the rain is creating different type of ripples in the lake of my heart.

The inverted image in the lake after the ripples shown, another familiar face is shown up, but that's not me.
( sigh... ) I think I am dreaming right now... ( Wake up.. wake up... )

The music in the laptop is playing " Listen to your heart" now, followed by " eyes on me"... Is my heart asking me to face the fact ? Is it asking me to see properly what's the image in the middle of the lake? That's the truth why am I awake in this period again?

Have you slept? Or still busy in your work? I do not want to disturb you as what the rain did to me, but hope you will not feel lonely especially in rainy night... nightz......

An Unsolved Problem

__ Recently, I suddenly recalled back a sentence from a friend. He's holding a good degree but working in a low-paid job. Many people tried to ask him, "why are you still continuing working there, since you have gained some experiences. You deserve to get a better job, do not continue stay in this company again." I was one of them who persuaded him to change job too. By the way, he gave me a very funny answer which is, " I know it, I just want to see how's the company going to the end. The company provides more tasks and the low-paid to their worker, boss does not want to hire more workers to share the burden. I wanna see if there are systematic errors all happened in once, how's the company stop processing and how much finance loss will they have."

__ ( Laughing ) Won't you think that is a very funny reason?? When the time he told me this, I respected to his decision too ( Of course, after laughing ). Today I might meet the same problem, but not in job. I mean I might use the same method to solve my problem. 

 

for appearing in my life. 

__ I met some problem, it has been disturbing me for a long long time. I cannot solve the problem, therefore I wrote down my feeling almost everyday, and sticky to the wall in my room. I would like to see how's this going to the end. Will it be solved successfully? Will it be a happy ending or either. How long will I need to use or how long will I use to forget this? 

__ For now, I do not know. Let's see then...... 

An Unsend Letter

It is not supposed to be here, but it is still here. There is no other reason, just because I'm not brave enough to send this out. 

I hope the meaning of the letter can pass to you in one day... 

Lost~

I'm lost..... Lost the direction of my life... Keep spinning.. and there is no

Angel VS Demon

Sometime, it's not necessary to pray for an angel to defeat a demon... Probably another Demon can it better... When the earth is dark, only demon can see the demon..... Keep a bright good heart, you are just giving the signal of your position to demon... You will be eaten... Nothing left.....

Probably we should pray for the Hitler instead of Barrack Obama.. We should ask for help from North Korea instead of American.. (it's just an example)

Angel will not bear to kill the demon every single time. Demon will. They want to play cheat.... Let's do something same with them... But do not cross the line to do something illegal.....

I know that's difficult to adjust the line between white and black... Stay in the grey.... Take the action silently... Collect the evidences.... Burn them down at once........

You Are Fast And Slow...

__ You have escaped for so many times... I had used wrong timing to catch you for so many times... That's my bad, but I never forget to continue chasing you.... One day, I will catch you tightly by using my hands...

__ Anywhere you are, I will be near..... Anywhere you go, I will be facing same direction... Anytime you pass by me, I will try to hold you...

__ I need time to turn me into mature, I need chance to be success... I know I'm meant to be where I am... And I'm not yet ready to catch the chance...

__ I still remember.... How every single promise I keep and I don't wanna break them.... Cause what kind of guy would I like to be.... Although they are seen as rubbish.... No matter what did I promise before, It will never have expired date...

__ Since I said them out loud those words, they would never go away... They will continue live on, even when I'm gone....

__ I nearly lose my direction...... nearly forget about you....  My dream place........

Holiday Mood is On

Just submitted my final individual final report, IT took me about 2 MONTHs to finish... Well, now i have done it.. And the group report is still waiting for u... However, I have already on my holiday mood...

Holiday.... It's coming soon....5.....4....3...2...1.. few more days left... Can't believe it, my second year in UK is going to end. It's going too fast that i felt that i had never spent a moment to enjoy the life here.

Currently, I'm on my laptop, writing blog ( the group report's part that i'm supposed to finish is still blank )...
LOL.... Omg.... I may feel panic later... but Who care.....

My heart is no longer there, to sit quietly and write the report. It has been flying there there there.... Hope to be there with you.....

Haha.... *sigh*......

Can you please get me some motivation or energy to complete my work....??

____ by giving your Smile... (^_^) (>;;;<)
 

Scratching My Head

Time to the submission date, it is left about two week...

And I'm still suffering in my work... Ouch god... Can somebody help?? Maybe the one I needed is GOD...

Spring break... Pls come faster... Berlin I'm coming... Wait me..!!!!

When A Silly Sheep meet A Kind Wolf

One day, there was a sheep which was lost from its group... It went into a forest...itself.... It is smart but silly… it stayed in a peaceful life before it went into the forest, and it assumed the life in jungle, would be much more similar to its hometown.

It met a wolf, when it was having its lunch. The wolf asked sheep whether why was it alone in this jungle, this jungle is so dangerous to those little animal. It shouldn't be having its grass in this open view land. Sheep listened to the wolf, and it thought it was new to this forest, it wanted to know why can it survive in this area, but it had no friend.

After that, it decided to follow the wolf, and planned to call the wolf to be its brother... The wolf wanted to rejected, but it would still worry about the safety of sheep when it was not there.

What should the wolf do?? It knew, both of them can't have the brotherhood or friendship those relationship. It wanted to leave, but it can't. In its mind, either the sheep was belong to him, or it would become its food in one day... In order not to hurt it, the wolf should leave the sheep now... But the silly sheep still did not know what's happening... That's the key point... The wolf is really headache...

Murderer

__ I had a dark face, i was described as an Indian boy when i was young. Lots of people said my look is very fierce when they first met me. I never care, because I always assumed I'm a good guy. My family, friends, lover knew me, that's enough.

__ Today, I used my bloody hand to hurt someone. I can't imagine why did i become so cruel, bad and evil. I treated that as a tree which i have planted for several years. I thought destroying a tree that will not affect to me, but i'm wrong. I'm really pain. I know i will not be forgiven, because i killed, destroyed the one I cherish.


__ I can feel that I'm a human without soul. The cold wind penetrate my clothes and corrode my inner body. It has frozen all of me. I can't feel any heat from my heart anymore. i'm going to become cold-blooded.

__ cold-blooded, maybe that's the only word i can describe myself now.

__ For those  who visit this blog, try not to treat me well. I will hurt you in the end. I'm officially a bad guy.

Ouch My God..!!!

Omg... I feel so complicated...

Stop it Stop it, please....!

__ A comedy movie is still showing, while I can't share my joyful with you anymore.
     This moment, I'm wondering why the sofa becomes so big. I did remember that It can never let my body length to lay down, but today i can.

__ Switch off the TV, the whole house has become silent. I can even hear my heartbeat and breathing sound, so clearly. It should not be that quiet. I was hungry, but I can't just wait for the dinner which will be auto prepared. It's all because......... You are no longer...

Kai's grannny and Pao's mum.... rest in peace..

For those families, take care urself.... Do not be too upset.

Birthday Present for Myself

__This is a secret... This is really a secret... Of course, I expect there is nobody care to visit my new blog. By the way, keep silent... =)

__ How long, I did not change a proper formal wallet for myself. Last time I changed, it was 8 years ago, or might be earlier.

__ Hmm, I have no mention any special meaning..

__ Have a new wallet; have a new start...

__ Cheer ^.^

23 Life

__ It's time to speed up in my study... Because of YOU, because of you.... I have wasted too much time in those unpredictable things.

__ Human would like to pursue and envy something branded or rare... They targeted high and far in order to get them, therefore they always missed something around them. Cherish the people or things around you, you will be admired too...

__ Before 23 years old, I was one of them above. After 23, it's really the time to wake up, to be a man. Be diligent, and stay on your own style... Try to be the rare star in your life circle.

Happy Happy Birthday...

Thank you for the birthday wishes... from You, YOu, YOU, yOU, yoU and yOu...

But still less yöü...

Hav you forgotten today, or you hav no idea what reason can u use to send me a msg... I hav used to receive ur MSG since long long long ago... You would either to be the first person to wished me or to be the last person, to show that you are special.

You were not willing to fight wif other ppl, so the recent years, you hav chosen to be the last person to say happy birthday to me... Will you still remember in this year...

Not for what special reason, just I haven't used not to collect ur wish...

Today, the first person is not longer u, will u be the last?
Or ignore that...