Imagine ~ 1

I think that is too boring for me in these few days. Besides watching movie and pps, I did nothing at all. The theme of the movies which are all around scientific fiction. That is the reason why I'm getting mad to imagine.

Since the natural disasters come around us, I felt that our Earth is getting worse of its sick. The Northern Hemisphere has snowstorm; the Southern Hemisphere has flood and conflagration. All the disasters looked similar to the movie "2012".
According to the ending of movie "2012", the earth will not vanish in the end, but the people and animals will die in 99% or above.

The heroic mind make me to wish that I can save the world. However I understand that I cant. I'm not either superman or god. As the result, I'm finding the other way to save it.

The first idea which I thought was "the moving plants".
We knew that the Earth is sick because the density to carbon dioxide is getting strong, so the temperature of Earth is getting higher and higher. Human build their comfortable houses, so they destroy the forest. Plants are lost, density of carbon dioxide are raised up.

I know that I cant stop the business men to stop their factory working or build the buildings. Plants will be destroyed because they block the places that people want to develop. As the result, I have a idea to solve it. Yes, if the plants can move and arrange properly, they will not be destroyed. People develop the lands they need, reduce to chop the plants so that the amount of plants will also be decreased. That is not the proper way to heal the Earth, but that can decrease the speed of the density of CO2 raising up.

I have another idea about healing the world. That is, how to let the plants moving. Waiting for the Imagine ~ 2

=)

Guilty

Two days ago, I took part my graduation day of ICPUP. It represented that I have finished my couse of this year. In the graduation day, we also took our final results...... Too bad...

Is ok, I accepted it. That night, I told my parents about my result. I was sad because my result is not enough to apply the scholarship. My mum told me that she gives me a clever brain, but I don't know to use it, so that is not her fault to make me have the bad result.
Haiz, she's so relax to say that. I'm also nothing to say.

These few days, I'm planning to write a scholarship application letter to the Taylor's. I don't know my application can be accepted or not, but I wish that they will accept me. My father told me before, I'm wasting his money. As the result, I wish I can reduce the money which come from my parents.

On the other hand, my sister will continue her study in Australia after Chinese New year. I know that it is needed a sum of money again. My sister's result was no bad, but she never thought about how to apply scholarship to save money from her parents, maybe she thought her parents are rich. However, I won't think so. Maybe i'm wasting too much money from my parents, I'm guilty because is my own fault, I can say nothing.

I hope that my application letter can be accepted. I don't want to be a son who is only wasting his parents's money. I will look down myself, you can look down me also.

Moral

As lonely extend the surrounding area until hubbub was covered; I was infected. I could not find the medicine; I could not be cured. I sank into the whirlpool with unlimited, as got bogged down as deep until the dark became the only thing in my world.

I tried to let my mind calm down. I chase one of the photon and tried to find out the proper direction. I followed the photon tightly, it brought me to back the reality....... I was still in the LRT.... One expectant mother came in the LRT. Full of people did not see her except me. I could do nothing because I was standing beside her.

I saw opposite side of the moral, I saw the dark in the society, I saw the reality in the world. When the LRT started moving, the only thing influenced my mind, it was the condition of the mother-to-be. At the same time, I found out an old man gave me a hint. He asked me to invite the expectant mother to sit his seat. I followed his instruction, but the Mother rejected him.

The Mother felt that old man was more suitable to sit the seat. The old man shaked his head within his smile. He told the woman that he was the one who is going to be abandoned by the world. Moreover, he continued said that the Mother was the one who was able to bring the hope to our world. He could let himself in danger, but he wished the Mother would be safe.

That time, I was sunk again. Dark was coming back to dominate my world. The tears enlarge my sight, I came round from the reality. Totally I never left from the dark. The examples of old man, the light particles in this dark world are less and less.......

Meteor

What would you do when you saw a meteor appear in your eyes?

Most of the people would make a wish, when they saw a meteor scratched out a light in the sky. That is one kind of custom in the ancient. Ancient believed that meteor represented God passed by the Earth, they made a wish and hoped that the God would receive.

When their wishes were realized, they knew that God heard their voice and solved their annoyance. If their wishes were not realized, they only believed that God did not hear their voice, they should made a wish with wholeheartedness in the next time.



Through thousand years, even scientists has proved that meteor phenomena is occurred by the outer elements scrape the surface of the Earth and produce the light. However, people still treat the meteor as one kind of romantic. At least, my girlfriend is one of them....

Actually, what are the wishes that we are supposed to make?

My opinion...

They (meteor or meteor rain) won't come anymore.... If they could not scrape and burn totally... In addition, if they do not drop in the North, South pole or Ocean.... What incident will it happen... Romantic ---> Tragedy.....

Return

Since we studied the history until we watch the movie "2012", we know that how the world is getting evolution. "End of the world", that is none can totally imagine it. Maybe it such like the frame of the movie; maybe it is worse.

Is there any ark is sent to world to save us; will the scientists find the solution to block the ending? The power of nature, that's none can control or stop it....

I don't the movie whether reflect the reality or exaggerate the truth. What do you think..? You can write in my chatbox to share wif me....

Someone said:" When "2012" come true, he wants to be the guy who can die at the first!" For me, I wished to stay at the highest mountain. Using my eyes to look the changing of the world. All of the buildings are toppled down; Earth will be flood by the sea. However, Earth will not be vanished. When everything has destroyed, it will return to the beginning point. Bacterium will occupy the Earth, the Earth will return to the Billion years or lightyear ago....

Everything will come again...... Human also will relive again...

Is Gone.....

Yesterday, when I'm in test, someone is keep calling me. I felt weird and I was getting angry as the time I could not solve my question. There was no mood; nothing is good. I gave up the test and passed up the paper. I found out the person who was keep calling me was my landlord. I called back.

"Hello, Gan arh. Did you bring your laptop to go to school?" "No, why?" "I think your laptop has been stolen."

I shocked, I wanted to ask all the questions in my mind at the moment. However, I didn't. I was stunned at there. I went back my room and checked. Laptop was gone. The day before, I just asked my computer teacher said that my laptop got something problems and maybe needed to format. The day after, My problem was solved.

I should cry; I should sad. However, a girl came and told to me:" Sorry, sorry, sorry! I saw them wanted to come in" "I'm shocked, I run to upstairs and call my boyfriend and landlord.." " I cant scream, I was shocked by them when they break the door and come in." "I'm so sorry..."

Since she told me, how can I be angry to her. If the thieves did something to her, my suffering is just a piece of cake.

Useless Guard, Useless policemen came, asked me to go report. However, none support me to go report; report is useless. Police is Malay; thief is also Malay. I don't to be a racist, but I'm disappointed to Malay.

It is my fate. None can help me.

I have controlled my temper. I only can blame myself. Gan WEI HAN is stupid!!!

Homeless people.......

This Saturday was similar with last one.... Tears of God was dropping as He took pity on those homeless people. However, those homeless people never felt grateful to that. They hated that the raining made them need to stop their working. Most of the homeless people or beggars, they live in this KL city by collecting the aluminum products and card boards. Everyday they need to collect the things and sell them to exchange the the meal for that day. Sometimes, as it is the raining season, the money they earn will be decreased. They felt cold and hungry... They're helpless, hopeless, friendless and homeless.

According to the Auntie Maple (one of the director), those homeless people will gather in the Pasar Seni's car park and waiting our coming every Saturday evening. These two times I went, they're very co-operation to separate them into three groups. Old man, Young man, young lady. They queued up to get the food, and friendly to say thank you for us. After they finished, they would throw the rubbish to the big plastic bags automatically.

As I was giving food for them, Ann (another organizer of Reach-Org) asked me to help the voluntary doctor ( Doctor Jessica). Doctor Jessica comes from Finland. She is a kind person. She treats very patiently for everyone. What's I doing is being the Doctor's assistant. I'm doing the translation between patients and doctor. Actually, I didn't give big help for them. I was surprised that the Doctor Jessica who know the Malay language and those patients's English conversation skill is better than me... OMG... Sad... I'm worst..... Besides, Doctor Jessica also would use her body language to tell the patients what should they do or what should they eat only can cover their sick. Doctor did that is only the most meaningful job.

Now, I become the member to the Reach-Org. Only I can do, that's tried my best to help those homeless people...Let's to give them some warm, and let the wave of love swept over them... Anyone is interesting to join, you can contact me..... (n.n)
Wish you have a Kind Heart, speaking in Good Words, and Helping in Charity....

As you think; as I wish.......

Tiny

Everyday, there are 1.2 billion people are hungry and do not have any food or drinks......



In KL, there are mostly few hundreds people are homeless....... (no included those we never no mention that..)



Where they are............
Did we ever mention........?

We never mention them because we don't want to see them. Everytime, when we're walking on the street, go for shopping, meeting or dating, we're only thinking what we should buy? where should I go for romantic dinner with my girl or boy? what movie we should watch afterward?
Is it correct?

Haha........ Haiz....
Yesterday, that was the first time i joined the charity... The group which I joined is called "Reach-Org"... There are quite a lots members in the group even those upper class people. One of members who I followed to do the charity is a "Datin". (wow...) The organizer of the group is called Peter who comes from Scoutland....
Peter told me the purpose of the group and how they did to the helpless people...

The group's activity is set on every Saturday. Their works mainly search for the begger, homeless people and give them some food once a week... After that, they tried to find out the reason why there are so many beggers.

The group has organized for 3 years. Since they need to give 30 packs of food until 600++ packs today. One of the member , Uncle Tiki, told me that the amount of beggers is increasing when they're continue searching, but that's not the good news. Although they can give the help for those homeless people, that's also shown the unbalance wealth in Malaysia.

In Taylors, Subang

Fair Lady, Mini cooper, BMW can be seen in everywhere. When the rich guys were wasting food; those homeless people were hungry... This is the reality that we cant solve it... Only we can do, is try our best to help those homeless people.

I learned alots in yesterday. I know how to distinguish between the real beggers and the "professional" beggers, and how to give the real help for those beggers.

Let me to share with you... When the baggers come to you and ask for money... Remember!!! Do NOT give them money, try to ask them what they need, and buy for them... And the most suitable things we should give them, is food... Human can live without clothes or money, but they cant live without food.

You sleep on the bed as they sleep on the street. When you have a sweet dream in the raining days, they're searching the scraps of paperto take shelter from rain.

How happiness we are, how lucky we are..... Let's thinking for those helpless, homeless people...
Pls don's say how you suffering. We have no any qualification to say that........

I will share my experiences at my next post.....

Cus I have written too long in this post..... T_______T

Truth

When the Earthquake was angry,
as the Tsunami appear at Pacific;
like the clock's moving normally,
such as time never hold on.

Grapes are sweet or sour,
depend on taste of all;
Sour graphs that's not we never try,
sweet graphs that's after we taste we realize.

Arh.......
Confusing walks back and forth;
my brain never turn around,
same as physics cannot solve.

Life is gone quietly,
time is still non-stop;
knowledge is unlimited and glowing radiantly,
free and unfettered is the only I need and I hope.


Created by NIght anGEL.......

Relax-ing

Morning....
bell is ringing as I was sleeping;
bathing and washing,
running plus walking....

One poem that I was presenting,
Two graphs of I was showing;
Three kinds of clappings were responging,
Four plus plus that I was dreaming...

After presenting,
Everything was peace;
As the blood pressure was decreasing,
my weight as light as a paper piece.

Eric, the one I asked for breakfast for celebrating,
As he didn't pick up the phone;
Is the fate that lonely happy meal was i having,
Happy covered lonely that addicted by the recreation horn.



Created by NIght anGel........

Memories

I came to a ordinary cafe several years ago.

When I pushed and entered its revolving door, the first sensation I had, was the taste of love which included fragrant and rich. Even tears also contained the sweet taste.



There was an ordinary boy. Engrave on his palm, except friendship, warm and splendid fireworks in the night sky, there was a line of pure love was growing up without being noticed.



All of the memories were performed in that tiny cafe - awaiting coffee.

Tuesday afternoon, my lazy body was warning me take a good rest when i was going back to my room. Pass by starbucks, fragrant coffee smell enticed me to went inside. I surrendered, I lost control and followed the smell came in the cafe. I found a seat started to consider what should I ordered. In the end, I ordered a cup of chocolate.

I like the coffee smell, I ate the coffee sweet, coffee cake and coffee cookies, but I never try a cup of true coffee. Some of the people said coffee is bitter; some of them said it is fragrant. None can tell me the truth. I'm confused. Hence, I only enjoy its smell and I wont try its taste. I'm afraid its taste would let me disappointed.

When I was having the chocolate, I recalled all my memories about the chocolate. Through chocolate taste, I recalled many. Six years ago, I was in love to a 'tiger' (Wahaha =D ). I wished to woo her, but I was afraid that I will lose. Hence, I was waiting the chances and buy the milo or chocolate for her. Those kind of days maintained five years until we graduated.

I would not regret because I was successful to woo her in the third year. Although there were many days we were in quarrel, I would not change to buy milo for her everyday. Protect her, it is my duty. I won't let her hungry or thirsty.


Quarrel hold the most of time in our life. Inside the memories, the quarrel pictures filled all my blanks in my brain. However, every times she was in the pictures, the smile will come too.


Past may be buried; but it certainly isn't vanished. No wonder the memory is sweet or bitter...

Swindler's mind

Swindler - it is a pronoun in my life...



Recognized witch is the beginning of the life of the swindler. Witch and swindler are couple. Swindler was a clever boy while witch is smart girl. As the result, witch never thought that she would be cheated by swindler because she thought that the swindler cheating skill would never escape from her eyes. Swindler understood that he was no as smart as witch, but he never gave up, he waited the chance.



Witch disliked the taste of lose, she was very hardworking to process all her works. Every time, when she was cheated by the swindler, she cried... upset.... and sad. For swindler, he could prove that he was smarter than the witch. The tears dropped on her own T-shirt because the witch had a deep love to the swindler.



For a long time, "swindler !! swindler !! I don't believe you, swindler..!! Heng..!!" became the habit words to the witch. Both of them had the bad temper but quarrel was the chemical reaction to increase the relationship of them.

One day, swindler found out he had to go oversea for continuing his study but he could not give up the witch. Days after days, the day was coming... Swindler understood that it was hard to handle a long distance relationship, but he could not break her heart. He knew that he had no any authority to block the witch to chase her happiness.

Finally, swindler decided to cheat one more time. He was waiting the next quarrel time. This time, he pretended to very angry and did not care about witch. He did not want to be the first person to compromise to the opposite side. He made angry intentionally to witch. He was successful to make witch misunderstood. In the addition, witch decided to finish the relationship of them. Swindler was happy and angry on the surface; the tears dropped unlimited until it dry. He treated coldly to the witch when the witch gave him the tips to explain to her. He prefered give up the chance. He deeply understood he was not good to the witch. Swindler was pain when he made this decision. He beared it. He could not let the witch knew. It was the first time, swindler was crying because he succeed. He broke his lover's heart, his most important person's heart.

Swindler was unforgiveable, he was a bastard to everyone... He would be regret in one day, everyone believed that........ He became the No.1 bad guy in the town.....

However, how many people will understand....... Who know his mind.....

Without witch, his looking such as a zombie... He had no feeling to see everything.... In his mind, swindler only thought that the wound in witch's heart had been recovered or not..... Had she eaten ? Did she eat well ? Will she smile ?

A Bastard story..........

Start in Zero...... End at Zero......

Do you know Zero...?

What's "Zero" in your mind..? "0"..? a number..? nothing..? or others..?



For me, zero is special....

How you draw a zero "0" ? Is it started at a starting point, draw a circle and link back to the starting point.

The concept of zero exists in mathematical structures called rings. It is the unique element that can represent to our life, when we call it x, such that for any other y in the ring y + x = y = x + y.This is how zero is defined in a mathematical context.

Does zero exist not mathematically?
If you did not have any apples, and I asked you how many apples you had, the answer would be zero.

Why zero and not something else?Well, suppose you do not have any apples, and I have four apples. If you give me all of your apples, I will still have four apples, so if A is the number of apples you had, and B is the number I had, then A + B = B, which tells us that A is zero based on the above definition.


However, the aim that I write this post because I want to say :" If my life such as "zero", If my life is nothing, If I know where I start and it will be my ending point, I will try again again and again to enjoy it... And I will try again and again to find out the starting point because that is the only place where I can escape from this curse...... My mind... My heart........ Never change......



It is a mathematical concept, so of course it exists, just as all the numbers exist. They are not physical, but they still exist. Look at the Peano axioms, which are the building blocks for the natural numbers 1,2, 3... (I don't know where, probably in any good set theory textbook). If you can find information on how the integers are defined in terms of these natural numbers, you'll get information on how 0 is defined. However, zero isn't always 0, such as in matrix rings.

The Fate 13etween Sentosa and Me.....

15th March-
-Slept over ultil 7 o' clock. I had been scolded.
-We went to Sentosa by bus and MRT. Reached at 9 A.M.
-Spent below RM 20 to reach Sentosa. But we spent over RM 20 for one common
normal meal--> chicken rice and the Longgan Ice.
-We played at the seaside and of cause rejected to spend money to visit some
special places.
-That day was Sunday... Of cause there were many visitors and citizens. Some of
them came for picnic. Some of them put down their responsibility and enjoyed
swimming at there..

I have long time didn't come back to my hometown. All the assignments, tests, reports have wasted all my time. So that's why I prefered to join them to the Sentosa. I went and relaxed at there. Some of friends enjoyed in the Bikini Beauty. Actually, they are success. Unfortunately, they dissappointed. Why? It is because they didn't meet the bikini beauty, but they met many bikini Old Lady. Actually which stupid beauty will prefer come the seaside in the noon?

We played until 2 P.M. We had no more energy to spend at there anymore. Our skins were not suitable continue stay under the Sun. So we decided to go bathing, afterward came back to Malaysia. My friends and I, Eight people, none brought the shampoo and body shampoo. I bathed without any clearner. But my friends used their clever brains to get some shampoo. The shampoo is green colour. Do you know wat's that? That's right, that shampoo is given by using to wash people's hands after their pee or something else... Haiz... I really respect them.....
They can use that "shampoo" to wash hair, body, and face.....

After that, we left from Sentosa and found our second meal at Singapore. One of friends suggested us to go Woodland, but we don't know how to reach there. We needed to ask people. My friend always liked to choose beauty stranger and asked. But there was no beauty at there. He walked forward to a Lady, and ask her. "Excuse me, auntie. May I know how to go Woodland centre?" The funny thing came again. The "auntie" answer him :" Hello! I'm not auntie ok!" After that, she didn't give us any useful informations. My friend told us:" she thought she is still a miss o, old like that and that tummy she thought she still young? " We laughed until we reached the Woodland.
We decided to went back early, because if we met the trafic jam, we will hard to back our house. When we arrived Malaysia, we went to watch " Dragon Ball ". Finally we missed the last bus which can back to our house. We waited almost an hour at the bus station. Until we called somebody to fetched us back.......

~ How Intersting Day ~