Our Story~ Ending

___These few days, I drank a lot of Milo (Milo in tin) in the morning. That is the only thing i would buy when i stood in front of the machine. I might have some special feeling on it. That is the starting point, and it reminded me to be end.

___Once, we were drinking Milo and staying in the same place. Both of us are happiness, joyful and so on. Today, we are drinking Milo and staying in the different place. Both of us are suffering, grieve and so on. What is the difference? It's liked north pole and south pole, it's liked sky and ocean. It cannot be linking anymore.

___I realized the truth, I determined to stop my idiot's doings. I'm so sorry to disturb you for these few years. I'm bastard that I only realized by now. Death is ending, gone is ending, stop is also ending. Today, the time in my mind stop from now, proved that I stop everything, end everything by myself. It's ending....

___When will the time be going to restart? When the north pole and south pole are in the same latitude line. When water flows to sky; the cloud appear in ocean.

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Our story~A NEVER Replied Message

There was a message, there was an e-mail...

sent to the same place, vanished in the same place.

I tried to find out the truth,

the result which is such as nothing on the white paper.

Nothing, that's only what I get from that place.

The strange place, I called it 'Xanne'.

There was one day,

I could not remember whether I'm drunk or anything else,

I sent a message to Xanne, to show my confession.

Accidently, i received the reply that i ever have.

I built a lot of bases, tears, sweat at there,

Obviously, my beloved is at there too.

The day, I tried to send a message to open the gate of Xanne.

There was no any echo came back to me.

Why you did not believe me?

Why you did not believe my true hearted?

Why you want to place me at the outside of Xanne?

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Our story~Continuous

Memory is untrustworthy. When we are dependent on it, all of our beloved will be disappeared in one day.

I didn't trust the ability of my brain. That's also not proven that you are not a valuable person to put in my brain.

None will be alive after 100 years, even you are the great scienctist in the world. After 100 years, memory will be gone. We will open our mind, if we still haven't died. Everything will be going to change, even the Earth.

Today, I would like to recall and catch the feeling of mine in this moment, write down all of our story. Internet is a unlimited space, thus I would like to awake my memory in hundred years later. That's not impossible, that's love between you and me.

That's how I can save our story, and awake our heart in thousands years millions years later.

Although we do not have the chance to love each other by today.
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Thanks 'S'

This afternoon, i went to Pyramid for having my lunch... Passed by the ice-skating court, few people enjoyed in that... An attractive shadow appeared and passed my eyesight at the moment.

How a beautiful girl enjoyed playing the ice-skating. Your slightly brown hair, wearing the pink colour jacket. Although I did not see your face. However, all the colours you wore, looked familiar with someone.... That's unforgettable girl.....

___My basketball shirts were printed her name.....
___Every night, I am holding the pillow that she gave me....
___My phone's background was set by her photo....
___My blog, msn, skype, FB; all of the passwords using the number which are related to her...
___Some of the clothes, wallet, key-ring, even my signature are also related to her....

How am I going to forget her.... Can anyone please teach me...... God, can YOU please give her a reason to hate me... Thus, I possibly can be released... Strugglling, suffering...

Luckily you are still accompanying me, thank you 'S'... I know that you hope me that i can accept you... Give me some time, i will accept you to become my only one, just like I'm the only one in your heart...
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Forever Scar

Since you'd left..........
Since I'd gone...........

We did not leave anything for each other unless the scar.......

I cant sleep at night, because the scar would be broken and bleeding again.....

I have to experience the process from the scar broke and condensed again day by day......

There is no exception.... The pain will not reduce, meanwhile it is increasing day by day.....

I'm worrying you.... I just want your news which tell me you're allright.

I cant bear it.... I'm going mad......... going down..............
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A visitor's reply

I promise I will continue to finish our story in one day......

If you have confidence in me.....

Before that... Please be happy..... The photos were seen like sad, tear was still in your eyes.....

Pain is slashing my heart..... and your tear is the murder...

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Insomnia

I dun know whether how many days I have had the insomnia symptom. The only thing which can be inquired is the insomnia has been started since THE INCIDENT was happened.

How hard I control myself and not to drop any tear in front of people. How hard that I constrain the feeling and continue to prepare my final exam.

Recently, white hairs are using their fastest to be shown in front of me. If people say, the amount of the white hairs can represent a person long for his lover, this legend is not suitable to describe on me.

Midnight, this is the time to let people who will be having a sweet dream. However, I cannot get any nightmare or sweet dream. You have left from my life. Even my dream, it is also afraid to disturb you. Hence, I’m using my own way to miss you all over again.

When will I recover? How long should I spend to cure this?

Please do not tell me I should use my entire life, because I have only left around half or more life. That’s not enough.

Should I look for the other ways?

No, I will not. Please allow my selfishness to keep some memories which were about you. I will not keep for whole life; it will only take around few decades.

You eventually will forget me in one day… and me too… The blog is only used to be my lifenote, remind me to fulfill those I have not done and remember the person who was important in my life...

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~残~

晨星逝，日替月；爱易生，情难灭。
轮昼夜，更四季；不了情，终难忘。

伤易愈，疤不散；不死解，永生痛。
念生愁，愁即痛；痛生病，病即残。

身将灭，心亦死；把酒欢，千杯少。
绝情天，降寡人；泪两行，斩不断。

月光下，独木旁；一泪池，长一兽。
兽眼瞎，泪仍流；似即生，心已亡。